Why bad things happened to good people? Namely, Me!!

Looking back, I saw so many unfortunate situations that happened in my life but it helped me to be where I am today and shaped the person I am I guess. Not that Im trying to complain but somethings are just bugging me in how things happened the way they are as if there's no alternate option for life to presented the situation upon me.

For example, in the morning of my engagement party my family and I was robbed. Yes!!! ROBBED and harmed. Both my sister and I was rushed to the hospital at 7 am for a surgery on the hand injury that was caused for self-defence we did.

Then I was rushed back home to continue with the ceremony as if nothing ever happened. Go through the day with nothing on my stomach but pain killer and water to keep me from fainting. Putting a fake smile to my face greeting the guest while worrying over my sister who's still operated in the fear of losing her fingers.

It was a nightmare that changed me for few months. I was cold and distant, constantly living in fear and anxiety over small little things.

I just dont understand. Yes, good things coming out of it eventually .. namely my family moved the next day from the house and actually moved interstate. But until today I wonder how and why it happened and is there any other way it could be prevented from happening.

In order to move on, do you forgive and forget or keep on dragging?

There's so many things I wanted to say to you. Especially things that I always had in my mind "How could you do this to me?" and the big "WHY?"

So many hurts, tears and pain you caused when you left. How things are left un-answered and how you made it clear that we are not in the picture of your world.

You want nothing to do with us. They want nothing to do with us.

Time passed by and so many things has changed and happened. One by one, we moved on.

Motivated by revenge and hatred, I am where I am today. Ironically, its all thanks to you. Without the hurt and the pain you caused, I might have be a quitter just like you. Giving up when success and happiness is just around the corner. Thanks to you, I am not afraid to confront those in the way of my happiness and whoever trying to come in between my family. Thanks to you, I know what loyalty and what love means. Thanks to you, I know exactly what-not-to-do in life to avoid the same mistakes you did.

Now the time come when I finally able to put everything behind us and start fresh. Loving you unconditionally despite the hurt and anger within me. Its not easy, but I managed. I have come a long way to be able to accepted you as you are with flaws and all. I managed to forgive (not forget) and importantly ACCEPTED.

Am I right to forgive you? am I right to move on when its not as easy for others to accepted you just as I have?

Will it be a crime to once again come face to face with the past that I have left behind ages ago? Do I betrayed my loved ones for the selfish act to move on on my own?

or should I keep on dragging all those hurt and pains and constantly be reminded of what has happened in the past and cut looses with all your ties?

Either way, its uneasy feelings.